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Look At Me

Look at me,
What do you see?
Look in my eyes, 
Do  they tell a story?
Look at my lips, 
Do you get fooled by the smile?
Listen to my chatter,
The never-ending happy banter,
Ever wonder if what meets the eye is all?
Find me in my solitude, 
Do I still look the happy lark you see?
Listen, and not hear what I say
Do you not glimpse a little something more?
just dig a bit, maybe..
Scratch the surface, a little?
If you still see the gaily, laughing me..
Well, either I ma natural artist,
Or you, another one of them...
Looking but not seeing.
Hearing but not listening.
Being there, but not there at all.
You are one more blinded sympathizer. 

By Fizzah Aziz

Out of Eden Walk: Traveling the World for Seven Years

Paul Salopek Journey

Pulitzer Prize-winning journalist Paul Salopek is almost one year into an epic walk around the world. He has another six years to go, but he has plenty of stories about what he's seen so far. We check in with him and hear what he's learned along the way.

Along the way he will be writing articles, shooting video and tweeting.

Salopek will take some 30 million footsteps during this journey, which he calls "the long walk into our becoming". So there is a lot of potential for blisters.

But he insists he is not doing this as some kind of extreme sport - he will be thinking hard, en route, about human evolution.

The starting point for the trek is Herto Bouri, a site in north-eastern Ethiopia populated by early humans in the Middle Stone Age.

The UK Life - Ups and Downs

It is 4:13 AM, 12/10/2014.

Dear Diary!

Why are things so tough? Why does Allah test people so much? There are so many questions and complains but well maybe there is some betterment in what Allah does.

Must say living away from home, though sounds fun but is really tough, especially if you are living in an alien country and you are short on cash.

To be honest most of my time passes in the University as I have nothing much to do elsewhere. Lectures just fly away, though for now they have been too lengthy and sleepy. Got the first taste of the standby professor Howard Stephenson and he looks like a tough professor to convince and a little strict too.

During this week I had my first English Skills lecture too, in which we have a group of 10 people from different countries learning different skills, there are people from Iceland, Norway, Malaysia, Brazil, Nigeria, Bangladesh, Pakistan and France so it is a good mix. Our first task was to introduce our partners to everyone which was fun. Well it is not a long course and except for the presentation part, I think it will go alright.

The Software part is getting onto me, really. I am really worried about how will I able to catch up with the people who have already worked on it for two years, so I tried to work and practice double but looks like I am overdoing things.

For the past two days, Police has been coming to my place and asking for my details again and again, not only me but all the other people living here too. It is a strange scary funny feeling.

There was a golden job opportunity and I was finally happy that my job was secured but then the unthinkable happened and I failed again. The manager asked me to come on the Wednesday, I went there on that day but there was a new manager now, he took me upstairs to give me the uniform but said I should come tomorrow as there is no uniforms available right now. I went back the next day and he asked me where my uniform was, and that I was supposed to buy my own uniform. I asked for another day and came back, but as soon as I reached back, got a few calls from someone from the restaurant to come back, I went back but the manager said we called you by mistake and wanted to call someone else, he told me in irritation that they don't want me to come anymore, thank you. I said thank you back and that was it.

I went to my friend's place to take the software, and met the PTI guy again, talked a lot about Cricket this time, I did get the software and was able to install it but too bad I don't have a mouse so wont be able to use it much on the laptop anyways.

Oh and also, I ate something other than Shawarma, half chicken with two naan, haha it was a nice change though the taste was no way near Pakistan.

Life is becoming so monotonous, I have been doing the same things again and again, I should try and enjoy things more and explore this area a little more as well. Need to offer prayers and recite holy quran as well that's the only way that I will have peace of mind and heart.

This completes my one month in the UK, overall it has been a good experience for me and except for a few hiccups I think I have done alright, have been strong for a change which I thought I wont be this time. There are days when I miss family and get really sad, hopefully I will be able to counter the ones which will come ahead, hopefully I will find a part time job soon , hopefully studies will go fine as well... hopefully this hopefully will come true.

Geoffrey Douglas Langlands - A Real Life Pakistani Hero

Geoffrey Douglas Langlands

There was this email on my student ID that international students can sign up to participate in a global youth event where you have to present one aspect of your country! I for once instantly decided to sign up and was selected to participate in the event.

The event was held at the University of York which is one of the most famous universities of the United Kingdom. I was talking this as an opportunity to test myself. All the words that I say about Pakistan, all the things that I decide that I will go for Pakistan someday, this was the opportunity to see if I had what it takes to do something practical.

I was sure about one thing that I will talk about some famous personality from Pakistan but at the same time I was extremely confused about what personality to present. I was confused between Abdul Qadeer Khan, Abdus Sattar Edhi and Geoffrey Douglas Langlands.

Finally I decided I will talk about Geoffrey Douglas Langlands because of three reasons. Firstly because he used to live in the United Kingdom, secondly because he was born in Yorkshire county, and lastly because he was one real life personality that I always think needs to be promoted more.

Believe you me it took me 5 days to complete the presentation and 7 hours continuous practicing on the last day to get everything exact. I wanted to tell so much but unfortunately I just had 10 minutes in total. When I first practiced the presentation I ended it in 30 minutes because of the stuff there was to tell, gradually I tuned down the presentation and shortened it and was finishing it right on the time as well.

Confession: I was extremely nervous but excited at the same time and this rarely happens with me.

We reached Yorkshire in the morning, it was day 4 of the conference which started at 10 am, there were 4 other students from Pakistan as well who were presenting other aspects of Pakistan and it was so pleasant to see that they were so passionate about it.

It was raining, the weather was romantic and then I saw the Pakistani flag among all the other flags fluttering, believe me it feels so good.

They asked us who among us would like to present first and strangely I raised my hand, more strange was the fact that I was rather confident while going on the stage, which NEVER happens with me. Before starting the presentation I even tried cracking some jokes, which failed to make anyone laugh but well, I tried.

The presentation went really well, I was able to stay confident all the while but just when I was about to end the presentation I felt my legs kept on shaking and wouldn't stop haha.

I had divided the presentation into different parts, firstly I introduced who Geoffrey Douglas Langlands was, then I told them about how I came to know about him, then about his early life, education, family problems time in the British Army, services for Pakistan army, contribution as an educationist, Langlands School and College and in the end I concluded the presentation telling them that he is extremely famous among the youth of Pakistan and my real life inspiration.

The reaction of the people was amazing, I have never seen people clap this enthusiastically for something, though most I could hear people saying words like ' good ' ' interesting ' ' wow ' the real compliment that I got was from the announcer who said she felt like I was telling her the story about his grandfather who also spent his life in Pakistan and that she was amazed that he is still alive and is so famous in Pakistan.

In the end I also told everyone that Pakistan is not all about terrorism and that you people should give us benefit of doubt because we are fighting the war against terror for all of the World and that there were many many more people that I could have introduced to them today and that Pakistan is filled with individuals who are amazing.

Overall it was an amazing experience, I swear I could not stop smiling for such a long while, extremely overwhelmed I was by the response and happy that I was able to something practical for Pakistan. 

Wrong Reasons


Written By: Bubbles.

I fell in love with him for all the wrong reasons
One night I sunk in his arms after our passionate love making
I stared deep into his eyes in search of his love for me
It felt like I was losing him already
I kept thinking to myself how can he be so beautiful yet so monstrous
His dreamy eyes burning into mine blurred my vision
My thoughts subsided, calmness filling me in
And with that face in my sight, I gave up myself to the sweet sleep
Wishing that I never wake up.

Squads of all 14 ICC World Cup Participating Teams

ICC Cricket World Cup 2015 Trophy

Here is the list of 15 member squad of all the participating teams in the ICC Cricket World Cup taking place in Australia and New Zealand.

Afghanistan: Mohammad Nabi (captain), Nawroz Mangal, Asghar Stanikzai, Samiullah Shenwari, Afsar Zazai (wicket keeper), Najibullah Zadran, Nasir Jamal, Mirwais Ashraf, Gulbadin Naib, Hamid Hassan, Shapoor Zadran, Dawlat Zadran, Aftab Alam, Javed Ahmadi, Usman Ghani

Australia: Michael Clarke (captain) (conditional inclusion), George Bailey (vice captain), David Warner, Aaron Finch, Shane Watson, Steven Smith, Brad Haddin (wk), Glenn Maxwell, Mitchell Marsh, James Faulkner, Mitchell Johnson, Mitchell Starc, Josh Hazlewood, Pat Cummins, Xavier Doherty

Bangladesh: Tamim Iqbal, Anamul Haque, Soumya Sarkar, Mominul Haque, Shakib Al Hasan, Mushfiqur Rahim (wicket keeper), Mahmudullah, Nasir Hossain, Sabbir Rahman, Mashrafe Mortaza (captain), Taskin Ahmed, Al-Amin Hossain, Rubel Hossain, Arafat Sunny, Taijul Islam

England: Eoin Morgan (captain), Moeen Ali, James Anderson, Gary Ballance, Ian Bell, Ravi Bopara, Stuart Broad, Jos Buttler (wicket keeper), Steven Finn, Alex Hales, Chris Jordan, Joe Root, James Taylor, James Tredwell, Chris Woakes

India: MS Dhoni (captain and wicket keeper), Shikhar Dhawan, Rohit Sharma, Virat Kohli, Ajinkya Rahane, Suresh Raina, Ambati Rayudu, Ravindra Jadeja, R Ashwin, Akshar Patel, Ishant Sharma, Mohammed Shami, Umesh Yadav, Bhuvneshwar Kumar, Stuart Binny

Ireland: William Porterfield (captain), Andrew Balbirnie, Peter Chase, Alex Cusack, George Dockrell, Ed Joyce, Andrew McBrine, John Mooney, Tim Murtagh, Kevin O'Brien, Niall O'Brien (wicket keeper), Paul Stirling, Stuart Thompson, Gary Wilson (wicket keeper), Craig Young

New Zealand: Brendon McCullum (captain), Trent Boult, Grant Elliott, Tom Latham, Martin Guptill, Mitchell McClenaghan, Nathan McCullum, Kyle Mills, Adam Milne, Daniel Vettori, Kane Williamson, Corey Anderson, Tim Southee, Luke Ronchi (wicket keeper), Ross Taylor

Pakistan: Misbah-ul-Haq(captain), Ahmed Shehzad, Mohammad Hafeez, Sarfraz Ahmed (wicket keeper), Younis Khan, Haris Sohail, Umar Akmal, Sohaib Maqsood, Shahid Afridi, Yasir Shah, Mohammad Irfan, Junaid Khan, Ehsan Adil, Sohail Khan, Wahab Riaz

Scotland: Preston Mommsen (captain), Kyle Coetzer, Richie Berrington, Frederick Coleman, Matthew Cross (wicket keeper), Joshua Davey, Alasdair Evans, Hamish Gardiner, Majid Haq, Michael Leask, Matt Machan, Calum MacLeod, Safyaan Sharif, Robert Taylor, Iain Wardlaw

South Africa: AB de Villiers (capt), Hashim Amla, Kyle Abbott, Farhaan Behardien, Quinton de Kock (wk), JP Duminy, Faf du Plessis, Imran Tahir, David Miller, Morne Morkel, Wayne Parnell, Aaron Phangiso, Vernon Philander, Rilee Rossouw, Dale Steyn

Sri Lanka: Angelo Mathews (captain), Tillakaratne Dilshan, Kumar Sangakkara (wicket keeper), Mahela Jayawardene, Lahiru Thirimanne (vice captain), Dinesh Chandimal, Dimuth Karunaratne, Jeevan Mendis, Thisara Perera, Suranga Lakmal, Lasith Malinga (conditional inclusion), Dhammika Prasad, Nuwan Kulasekara, Rangana Herath, Sachithra Senanayake

West Indies: Jason Holder (captain), Marlon Samuels, Sulieman Benn, Darren Bravo, Jonathan Carter, Sheldon Cottrell, Chris Gayle, Sunil Narine, Denesh Ramdin (wicket keeper), Kemar Roach, Andre Russell, Darren Sammy, Lendl Simmons, Dwayne Smith, Jerome Taylor

UAE: Mohammed Tauqir (captain), Khurram Khan (vice captain), Swapnil Patil, Saqlain Haider, Amjad Javed, Shaiman Anwar, Amjad Ali, Nasir Aziz, Rohan Mustafa, Manjula Guruge, Andri Berenger, Fahad Al Hashmi, Muhammad Naveed, Kamran Shahzad, Krishna Karate

Zimbabwe: Elton Chigumbura (captain), Sikandar Raza, Regis Chakabva, Tendai Chatara, Chamu Chibhabha, Craig Ervine, Tafadzwa Kamungozi, Hamilton Masakadza, Stuart Matsikenyeri, Solomon Mire, Tawanda Mupariwa, Tinashe Panyangara, Brendan Taylor (wicket keeper), Prosper Utseya, Sean Williams

Long Nights


Written By: Bubbles.

I lie awake all these nights thinking
What if things worked out between us
What if flowers bloomed where I once buried my bleeding heart
What if you put that load off my chest and secure my insecurities with your reassurances
What if your touch feels like a sincere touch
What if you taste me with sweet promises
What if you stay by my side forever and never leave
I know I have lost you but my thoughts haven't
They pierce my soul every day and every night
I've got no control on them, they keep coming and leaving
Just like you do

The UK Life - Finally Settling In

Dear Diary!

It is 8th November, 0425h and I am unable to sleep! Last time I wrote was a long time ago which may indicate I have had a busy life or that things have been going alright, and to be very honest it has been a mixture of both.

University has been going alright I was actually very nervous about how I will manage to integrate myself with other students, dealing with the different ways of teaching and learning new software in such a short time but I have to say so far so good. I practiced the software a lot in the first month so now I feel I am getting the hang of it but the real test will begin when I will get proper assessments. Must say professors here have been really helpful, no matter what you wanna ask you can anytime, several times. There is a level of comfort which actually I am liking a lot.

I have been leafleting in the past few weeks, which at one hand is helping me earn cash but on the other hand is allowing me to get to know the nearby area, it has been fun so far except for a few incidents like a dog making me run almost half a kilometer.

The weather has been getting colder with every passing day, there was a phase in between when it felt as if summer time is returning but now proper winter has started I guess, they say this year snowfall will be more than the last couple of years so the signs are not so good. Though the weather is enjoyable.

My new hobby so far has been to go out on random street trips, getting to know the area whenever I get time. The weather and the places combine and allow me to keep walking for as long as I want. I have been to different parks, lakes, centers, shops. Observing people, the ways, how things are done, how people act and it is exciting as usual.

There have been some incidents, pleasant ones I must say during this time like me meeting a cute little boy, and presenting about a famous Pakistani personality which I will talk about in a proper separate post.

I have moved in the shared accommodation now and so far it has been good, we both get along well and it is fun must say my roommate is really funny.

Oh and I was also able to get training at a local takeaway on how to run the place. From making pizzas to burgers, to grilling chicken to making a chicken parmesan , to cutting vegetables to doing the dishes to making different sauces to taking orders, it was tiring but fun.

By the looks of it I have settled down nicely except for a few hiccups it has been fine so far, hopefully things stay the same. I really want to enjoy my time here and somehow I have not been able to do so.