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Wednesday, October 26, 2016

From Mom to Daughter

Memories of another time still come
To me and fill my mind, with thoughts
Of you when you were young. I lie awake
'Till the morning sun comes creeping
Through my window shade, as I dwell upon
Mistakes I've made. What I would give to
Go back in time and feel your little
Hand in mine. To cherish each fast and
Fleeting day. To hold you close and kiss
Away, each pain that life will have in
Store and try to give you so much more.
You are part and will always be, imbedded in the soul of me. While I'm
Here, I want to say, that I've loved you
Each and every day and when my time on
Earth is gone. 
The privilege was mine to have been your Mom.

Saturday, October 22, 2016

Dream of Pakistan's Cap (Part 7)

Ahmedis in Pakistan

Zubair wants to leave too, but his family doesn't have the money. He's hoping to convince his father to at least send his brother away. Zubair started playing cricket the year Mohammad Amir got banned. Amir is set to return to the Pakistan side a few days after this match and Zubair plans to watch. "Once he comes and plays, everyone will realise that he is a good bowler. There is no other bowler like him. He is a child who made a mistake."

Zubair stopped studying after second grade. He says he was far more interested in cricket. He only speaks in Punjabi, though a word or two of Urdu occasionally squeezes itself into conversation. He seems far too young to be burdened with the life he leads. "My brother works in the graveyard and I work at a kitchen-utensils shop in the market. I earn Rs 3000 [about $29] a month. I work two and a half hours in the morning, and another two hours in the evening."

It is a bright, clear day and it feels like June as the sun beats down on the ground; remarkable for early January in Punjab. Layers are being peeled off, and the match continues.

Every so often, someone yells out for the score. Both teams have their own scorers, and after every four overs, someone runs to the magnetic scoreboard to change the tiles. The teams tally their scores; if there is only a few runs' difference, the visiting team's score comes up trumps. Matches are usually of 30 to 35 overs an innings; on Fridays the Rabwah team needs to wrap up matches before the telecast of the weekly sermon from London by the head of the community.

When the home team bats, the rest of the players break off into little circles for practice. There's a slightly disconnected sense to the proceedings - or perhaps a paratha-induced stupor - but the runs keep racking up effortlessly. Batting first, Fazl-e-Umar end with over 250 and go on to win the match. But Haye's training, the ground's upkeep, and the discussions over technique all seem ultimately futile. The club's future seems limited.

Fazl-e-Umar comes under the administrative purview of the Jhang District (which is part of the Faisalabad Region). Haye describes Jhang's cricket officials as helpful, though Jhang is the home of the sectarian and militant Ahle Sunnat Wal Jamaat.

Not everyone is helpful. The city of Chiniot has long been a hub of anti-Ahmadi sentiment and organises an annual anti-Ahmadi conference each year to mark the legal excommunication of Ahmadis from Islam.

Haye alleges that Chiniot's sports officials exclude Rabwah's teams or cricketers from tournaments they host. "This is cemented in their heads," he says. "They're sitting there with these long beards, and they've just decided that they're not going to have us play."

Sohaib Ali, secretary of Jhang's cricket association, told me that they have picked players from Fazl-e-Umar in the past, for U-19 tournaments and senior ones. "When boys are playing, they don't care who is from what religion," he said. "There has never been an incident where this has come up." He also corrected me and said the town's name was Chenab Nagar.

Tuesday, October 18, 2016

Lenoard Nimoy's best Spock Quotes

Leonard Nimoy

Leonard Nimoy was a prolific, director, photographer, multi-talented actor, and poet who passed away 27 February 2015. He died at the age of 83 from the end-stage chronic obstructive pulmonary disease. He was quite famous for his role as Mr. Spock on the fantastic classic sci-fi series Star Trek. The Star Trek is one of the most popular movie series having most influential characters to grace the screen. Lenard Nimoy was a first-generation American fluent in Yiddish, whose parents were Jewish. He got his fame for playing a half-human, half alien “Vulcan”. In this topic, you will find a collection of the best Quotes by Leonard Nimoy.

35. Artists and Universe

“You know, for a long time I have been of the opinion that artists don’t necessarily know what they’re doing. You don’t necessarily know what kind of universal concept you are tapping into.”

34. Ancestor of Mine

“An ancestor of mine maintained that when you eliminate the impossible, whatever remains, however improbable, must be the truth.”

33. Human

“If I were human
I believe my response would be ‘go to hell.’
…If I were human.”

32. History

“History is replete with turning points. You must have faith that the universe will unfold as it should.”

31. Beauty

“There is no reason that function should not be beautiful – in fact, beauty usually makes it more effective.”

30. I meant to be

“Each of us at some time in our life turns to someone, a father, a brother, a God and asks
Why am I here? What was I meant to be?”

29. Insults & Emotion

“Insults are effective only where emotion is present.”

28. Wanting

“After a time, you may find that ‘having’ is not so pleasing a thing, after all, as ‘wanting.’ It is not logical, but it is often true.”

27. Needs

“The needs of the many outweigh the needs of the few or the one.”

26. Loss of Life

“Loss of life is to be mourned, but only if the life was wasted.”

25. On Leadership

“And what is it that makes one man an exceptional leader? We see indications that it is his negative side which makes him strong, that his ‘evil’ side, if you will, properly controlled and disciplined, is vital to his strength.”

24. On Working with Humans

“May I say that I have not thoroughly enjoyed serving with humans? I find their illogic and foolish emotions a constant irritant.”

23. On Proper Etiquette

“That position, Mr. Scott, would not only be unavailing but also undignified.”

22. About the Human Heart

“You find it easier to understand the death of one than the death of a million. You speak about the objective hardness of the Vulcan heart, yet how little room there seems to be in your.”

21. Describing the Roots of Violence

“When there is no emotion, there is no motive for violence.”

20. Finding the Truth

Once you have eliminated the impossible, whatever remain, however improbable, must be the truth.”

19. When He said how He actually Felt

“The most unfortunate lack in current computer programming in that there is nothing available to immediately replace the starship’s surgeon.”

18. How to use Language

“Fascinating is a word I use for the unexpected; in this case, I would think interesting would suffice.”

17. How to Respond to an Insult

“Insults are effective only where emotion is present.”

16. The Roots of Danger

“Insufficient facts always invite danger.”

15. When He Threw Shade

“The fact that my internal arrangement differs from yours, doctor, pleases me to no end.”

14. On Desire

“It is curious how often you humans manage to obtain that which you do not want.”

13. Being the Bigger Person

“The Captain, I see no reason to stand here and be insulted.”

12. Questioning Human Logic

“Has it occurred to you that there is a certain inefficiency in constantly questioning me on things you have already made up your mind about?”

11. After taking a Shot

“It is somewhat stimulating. You seem to be moving very slowly doctor. Fascinating.”

10. On Libido

“The seven-year cycle is biologically inherent in all Vulcans. At that time, the mating drive outweighs all other motivations.”

9. The Path to Enlightenment

“Logic is the beginning of wisdom, not the end.”

8. Understanding Conflict

“To expect sense from two mentalities of such extreme viewpoints is not logical.”

7. Regarding Artificial Intelligence

“Computers make excellent and efficient servants, but I have no wish to serve under them.”

6. Essential Process

“Change is the essential process of all existence.”

5. Racing to Captain Kirk’s Dating Tactics

“Captain, your analysis of the situation was flawless – anticipating that she would deny your admittance. However, the logic by which you arrived at your conclusion escapes me.”

4. About Desire

“You may find that having is not so pleasing a thing as wanting. This is not logical but it is often true.”

3. On Change

“Change is the essential process of all existence.”

2. On Social Troubles

This troubled planet is a place of the most violent contrast. Those who receive the rewards are totally separated from those who shoulder the burdens. It is not a wise leadership.”

1. Farewell, Old Friend

“Live long and prosper.”

Friday, October 14, 2016

Dream of Pakistan's Cap (Part 6)

Ahmedis in Pakistan

Fazl-e-Umar routinely play against visiting clubs and tour other cities, though Haye notes that nowhere else are the facilities as good. Occasionally a star cricketer or two has shown up in Rabwah, including Rana Naved-ul-Hasan, Saeed Ajmal and Mohammad Hafeez. Ajmal, the legend goes, was hit for seven sixes in six overs, and the umpire wanted to report his action. Haye stopped him from doing so, not wanting to offend their guests.

Rabwah has no star cricketers of its own. Faisal bin Mubashir may be the best-known Ahmadi cricketer in recent years, and while his team-mates know of his faith, it isn't a fact he pushes in anyone's face. When he visits Rabwah he tries to pass on to the club's players what he has gleaned over the years.

There is an Urdu phrase that you will hear often in Rabwah: rang lagna. Literally, it means to be coloured, but in this case it is taken to mean getting the green cap of Pakistan. This national recognition remains out of reach in Rabwah, where the belief that societal discrimination against Ahmadis must naturally extend to cricket is embedded. None of the boys believe they will ever have a shot at representing Pakistan, even if only a few have gone further than club cricket.

On the surface their stories are not different to those of so many aspiring cricketers who feel they have not got their due because they didn't have the right connections or didn't come from the right part of the country. But unlike the majority, underpinning the disgruntlement of these stories is their faith.

"It's one thing if there is a future," Anas Amin, a 22-year-old bowler, tells me, his head bowed as he tries to keep score at the Sunday match. "The religious issue comes in between."

"You need a lot of hard work to play first-class," says Zubair Ahmad. "And our class will be an issue. We can't even greet anyone with salaam." (Ahmadis are not allowed to use Islamic words.)

The club has produced an array of cricketers they feel were above ordinary - several star batsmen, a fast bowler they felt was better than some who had represented Pakistan. But no one sticks around long enough. "They're all looking for an agent who can take them to Germany," Haye says and laughs. Eight of the club's best players recently moved to Germany, leaving Haye in the lurch, scrambling to recruit and train more players. The legend of the men who left overshadows almost every conversation. Everyone has a brother, a cousin or an uncle who made it out, and who managed to keep playing cricket in a league in England or Holland or Germany.

Leaving isn't easy. It can cost up to $15,000 to get out of Pakistan. "Anyone who has that much money can go to Germany or England, where their life will be much better," Zubair says. "They can play cricket in England. And earning a thousand [euros] there means Rs 100,000 in Pakistan." Many Ahmadis travel to Thailand or Sri Lanka, where they try and claim asylum, or use it as a base to strike out to Europe.

Monday, October 10, 2016

Father Knows

My father knows the proper way 
The nation should be run;
He tells us children every day
Just what should now be done.
He knows the way to fix the trusts,
He has a simple plan;
But if the furnace needs repairs,
We have to hire a man.
My father, in a day or two
Could land big thieves in jail;
There's nothing that he cannot do,
He knows no word like "fail."
"Our confidence" he would restore,
Of that there is no doubt;
But if there is a chair to mend,
We have to send it out.

All public questions that arise,
He settles on the spot;
He waits not till the tumult dies,
But grabs it while it's hot.
In matters of finance he can
Tell Congress what to do;
But, O, he finds it hard to meet
His bills as they fall due.

It almost makes him sick to read
The things law-makers say;
Why, father's just the man they need,
He never goes astray.
All wars he'd very quickly end,
As fast as I can write it;
But when a neighbor starts a fuss,
'Tis mother has to fight it.

In conversation father can
Do many wondrous things;
He's built upon a wiser plan
Than presidents or kings.
He knows the ins and outs of each
And every deep transaction;
We look to him for theories,
But look to ma for action”